Is there really something beyond death? An intuitive believer/skeptic’s view….
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I was driving down this quiet, winding country road in silence. Gorgeous sun-filled, blue skies overhead, minimal humidity; just cruising, when the Donna Summer song “Dim all the Lights” popped into my head. I laughed and I am sure I screwed my face in confusion as to where the song came from. I had not heard or thought of this song in a very long time, but it immediately made me think of my Mother. I said “Hi Mom, enjoying the drive”? It was the very moment that I wondered, was the song popping into my head her giving me that “sign” or was my mind just randomly shuffling through data that was stored there and the song came up? It made me question: Is there really life after death, are we really getting signs from the other side or are we just hurting from the loss of our loved ones that we make this shit up to make ourselves feel better about the loss and eminent death of our existence?
Well, I can always see many sides to every situation and this topic is no different. As much of a believer I am in all of this, I am also a skeptic. I am always looking for proof of something else. I really do not have to look too far as I see “signs” all of the time, but am I just crazy? Is it just wishful thinking?
I know, for a fact, that somethings that I have experienced and still do experience are absolutely unexplainable. I have seen ghosts since I was a small child. I can feel their energy (o.k. feeling can be made up in our heads), but animals for sure can see things that we cannot and when my dogs are barking and following something around that cannot be seen and the hairs on the back of my neck stand up, I know that something unexplainable is occurring.
I believe in past lives too as I came into this world from a past life that once I was able to speak, told my family all about it when I was about 3 years old. The even creepier thing, Is this was the 60’s when home computers were not even imagined and my family was able to verify the information that I provided to them by going to the library.
I lived in a house that was so haunted that things would move, turn on and off at 3:00 a.m., crash, break, which could be telekinesis, but then my analytical mind says “O.K., telekinesis has been proven, but I would venture to think that the person would have to concentrate on moving the object”???? I know that when I am sound asleep, I do not think that my energy would be turning things on and off, breaking things. If anything, sleeping creates the most calming energy and telekinesis is a buildup of energy that is then refocused on an object. Not to mention, I do not think that my energy would be able to unscrew all of the lightbulbs in my home during the day when I would be 40 miles away at work. So that has me wondering, what is real? What I also know is – I saw my daughter get thrown down our hallway and it left a red, bruised mark from her shoulder to the crook of her arm. We were both in a jovial mood so I do not think it was my energy as anger energy moves things easier. After that, we decided to move.
There is also the deceased woman that roams my home, whom I previously knew many years ago. When my daughter and nephew came to me concerned about the lady that lurks in my daughter’s bedroom, I pulled up some random photos of several women, one which was of the girl that I knew. Separately I asked my daughter and nephew if the creepy woman looked like any of the women in the photos and they both picked the same woman and it was the one whom I thought it was. So that is definitively proof that something beyond here exists, yet I still remain a constant believing skeptic. However, I know that shit was not made up.
I will not talk about my precognitive, clairvoyant, clairaudient, clairsentient abilities, because that does not prove life beyond the grave. I will talk about Mediums that “talk to the dead” in general. I have had much experience with my own abilities in this field and experience with people whose Mediumship gifts/skills are much more advanced than mine. So I pondered this for a while, are they really talking to the dead or making shit up OR are they so psychic that they are picking up my energy and memories and that is what they are considering as talking to the dead? I do know that one Medium in particular is so dead on accurate with information that she even takes on the personality of my deceased family members…but again, is she just picking up my memories of her?
I want to believe that there is something more beyond this. I experience things that truly cannot be explained. Why do I still remain skeptical? Just because we believe something is real, does not make it real. I guess I am just so analytical and very scientific leaning, I want scientific proof that say YES, this is all real and YOU are not crazy and do not worry, when you die you will be reunited with everybody that you love and missed for so long and you will live in this other realm happily ever after. I want that reassurance.
There have been incredible advances on the scientific discoveries of Paranormal / Metaphysical Sciences including Quantum Physics, but it is all still very speculative. I just hope that more advances become known and very soon so that I can be at peace. Maybe it will take one of my deceased relatives to show themselves to me and while standing before me clearly say “Yes, there is something more, do not worry, know that you are not crazy, all is good and we are watching over you and waiting for you patiently”!
So what do you all think? What are your opinions on this topic? I would really love to know.
Xoxo Kim